Sunday, November 6, 2016

Two Wheels and a Dream: An Aligning of the Head and Heart



Imagine what it’s like to have to pay attention to everything you eat.  Then imagine having to check your blood sugar several times a day because the slightest change to your diet could literally put you in a life and death battle in the blink of an eye.  This is the life of a person with diabetes. 

According to the American Diabetes Association, 1.4 million Americans alone are diagnosed with diabetes every year.  (This does not include undiagnosed cases.)  It remains the seventh leading cause of death in the United States, and yet it is a disease that does not get nearly as much attention as it should.

The documentary film project entitled “Two Wheels and a Dream,” follows Type 1 diabetic Deejay Viloria on a 600+ mile journey, cycling from Chula Vista to San Francisco.  I had the privilege of attending a Q and A with both Viloria and director Benito Baustista and was overwhelmed by their passion for this project.  As I listened to them speak about why they believe in this film, I couldn’t help but think of my own brother, and his daily struggle with the same disease.  Diabetes doesn’t just affect the person who has it: it affects one’s friends and family as well.

Viloria, now 35 years old, has lived with Type 1 diabetes for 23 years.  When he speaks about “Two Wheels and a Dream,” it is apparent that there was a time when diabetes controlled Viloria’s life. As a kid, we are taught to dream big, that we can be anything we want to be.  For Viloria, he dreamed of following in the footsteps of his dad and joining the navy.  Unfortunately, diabetes is a pre-existing condition.  His second dream of being a pilot was also “stripped” from him.

“The last dream I had left was when I learned how to ride a bicycle.  I went on a 50-mile bike ride in Mexico with my friends after college and loved it,” said Viloria.

Viloria then made his next dream to be to ride to his relatives in San Francisco.  When he describes how he reached that dream, Viloria uses the metaphor of an archer aiming for his target.

“This film is not so much about that 600-mile journey, it’s about the relationship between my head and my heart,” said Viloria.

“For the last maybe decade and a half, I’ve been up here,” as his motions to the top of his head.  “My mind, my brain is a time travel.  Why?  Because all the time it thinks about things in the past.  I got hurt before, I felt this before…I worried a lot about what happened.  And then I also travel to the future and worry about what tomorrow’s going to bring,” said Viloria.

Viloria then describes his heart as, “where I live, in the present.”  The two were misaligned.  One was constantly worrying about the what ifs, while the other one was just focusing on the present. 

“The journey is the pulling in focus on both my mind and my heart on one thing.  Pedal after pedal after pedal, hill after hill, dip after dip, valley after valley, whatever it is, it doesn’t matter.  Everything’s aligned for that one target to get there,” said Viloria.

Viloria quickly realized that there were many contingencies to work on including what paths he would take, what would he need to eat to keep his blood sugar in check, etc.  But instead of worrying about that, he realized, “All I needed to do was share it with someone else who might know what they’re doing.”  That person turned out to be Bautista.

Bautista, a cyclist himself, describes Viloria as someone who brings so much joy to his life.  He mentions tacking J Street in San Diego, known for its hills, and how Viloria tackled it like a professional. 

“His mental toughness is amazing,” said Bautista.

As he goes into the intricacies of the documentary from a director’s point of view, it becomes clear that the film will explore so much more than a Type 1 diabetic and his dream.  Bautista describes it as a David vs. Goliath because we are rooting for the unlikely hero.  That unlikely hero is Viloria, but just as this film is about a “regular person,” it is also about a struggle that many of us can relate to.

According to Bautista, “the creation of the film is very meticulous and it has a lot of moving parts.”  This includes musical composition, editing, drama, reality, and the crew.  Together its moving pieces comprise a love story, a sense of community (the Filipino community, the community at large, and the cycling community), and the relationship between all of us and the environment, especially the environment we overlook.

The documentary will employ doctors and describe how diabetes can be monitored and managed.  It will also speak with family members and share their points of views.

As the sister of someone who struggles with Type 1 as well, I expressed my concerns for what could happen to Viloria if his blood sugar were to get too high or low during the ride.  Viloria assured me that he was working with his endocrinologist on getting his blood sugar higher before he rides, but a medic support van will also be coming on the journey in case of an emergency.  His readings from his insulin pump will be viewable online as he rides by the public.

Viloria plans on cycling between 40-50 miles a day, with a total of 673 miles.  He is expected to take off on November 26 (contingent on meeting their goal of $50,000), and plans to arrive in San Francisco within 13 days.  When he is not biking, he will be meeting with the community and camping out.  The trek will be broadcast live on social media.

As someone who has seen firsthand how this disease can literally put you at an all-time low, I am encouraged by the enthusiasm that everyone involved in this film puts forth.  We need more awareness of diabetes and we need this film to be made.  I ask my friends, friends of friends, to please support this film in any way that you can.  I share in their vision, and hope you will come along on the journey with me as well.  Together we can educate, learn how to set our own limits, and not let a disease define how we see and interact with the world.

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Saturday, June 11, 2016

Christina Grimmie: Gone Too Soon



Think for a minute about your favorite artists and the reason you listen to their music.  Perhaps you like their style, or their catchy lyrics, or their music speaks to you.  We’ve all heard these.  For many of us, we feel like we know the artists we listen to because we can relate to them in some way.  While we dream of meeting them one day, we may never truly know them because they are celebrities and while they live among us, they live in a different world than us.

Christina Grimmie was a celebrity, who though I never met, I feel as if I knew her.  She lived in our world.  She was funny, charismatic and radiated joy in every video she ever posted.  It wasn’t just her larger than life voice that lit up the stage, but her laughter, smile, and goofy side too.  She was a normal teenager when she began posting her YouTube videos and when she went onto the Voice, she was just like one of us, living out her dream of becoming the singer she was destined to be.

I recall “discovering” her covers on YouTube and thinking how cool it would be to interview her.  She made videos I wished I could make.

I loved her rocker, sparkly, style.  I loved her countless hairstyles, whether it was choppy, or curly, or blue.  But most of all, I loved how her personality came out in every single performance she ever gave.  On her audition for the Voice, she literally gave me chills.  She got a 4 chair turn because she was THAT good.  I can’t recall ever shedding a tear over someone I’ve never met until today.

Even as I write this, I am in still in shock, wondering how such a sweet, innocent, 22 year-old who was always smiling is now gone.  Even in her last moments on earth, she was about to embrace her attacker.    I am angry and sad.  I don’t understand why these countless tragedies continue to occur. 
Christina didn’t deserve this.  Her mother survived breast cancer three times and now has to bury her daughter.  Her brother had to watch it all unfold in front of his very eyes.  The world was robbed of a true, God given talent who did nothing but bring joy to her family, friends and fans.  Sadly, I will never get to meet her or see her perform live and that angers me too.

As I drove home from work today, Aerosmith’s “Dream On” came on, and I think its lyrics are rather appropriate here: “Sing with me, sing for the year/ Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear/ Sing with me, just for today/ Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away…”

The Good Lord did take her away but I know she is up there smiling down on us with her beautiful smile.  Please take care of her up there and bless her family.  And Christina, please know that you inspired so many people to be themselves and to pursue their dreams.  You will be missed.  #RIP 

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

All American Concert Review


I was 11 years old when the Backstreet Boys released their first self-titled album on August 12, 1997.  I remember vividly asking for it for Christmas and being so excited to open that cassette tape on Christmas morning.   My dad bought it for me from Tower Records in New York and it quickly became one of my favorite albums.  When Millennium was released on May 18, 1999, I couldn’t wait to get it in my hands.  I anxiously waited for TRL that day to share in my joy, as the boys made what became a recording-breaking appearance.  Flash forward to 2016…

It’s been a lifelong dream of mine to meet Nick Carter.  This year, I decided to treat myself to an early 30th birthday present and buy the VIP Meet and Greet for the Solona Beach Show at the Belly Up on February 27.  I thought for weeks about what I would finally get to say to him and told myself to make sure to really remember the moment.  Well that certainly went out the window when I was waiting in line to greet him.  Instead, I joked with others in the line.  What if I said, “It’s cold outside.  Can you warm me up?”  And that’s just what I did.  Seriously.  I think he said something like, “It is cold out isn’t it?” but honestly who knows.  I was finally getting my hug from Nick, one I have been waiting for for 20 years and it was amazing.  Then they took our picture, and I had a few more seconds to try and remember any of the lines I had rehearsed for weeks.  I mentioned how I didn’t get into Dancing With the Stars but that he tweeted me that night and it made me happy.  I must mention that the entire time I was talking to him, he was looking me directly in the eyes and holding my hands.  Nick is truly attentive to all of his fans.  He appreciates all of his Backstreet Army and I will always be an #NCFan4Life.

A few days later, Nick added Appetizing Afternoons to some of his east coast dates, and I debated whether or not to splurge on one last weekend.  After all, it was my birthday.  So I flew to Boston to meet my best friend Melissa and let me just say that it was literally the best weekend ever.

Nick is so down-to-earth and I am so appreciative for the time he took to greet each of his fans at Kings in Boston.  I am proud to be a fan for 20+ years.  I don’t think I’ve smiled more in one day in my life.  Thank you for all your hugs, birthday wishes and of course both of your amazing shows.  You are a class act.

Concert Review

I have seen Nick live a total of 5 times prior to the All American tour.  This includes two shows on the Black and Blue tour, NKOTBSB, A World Like This and Nick and Knight.  Each tour was unique in its own way, but I can honestly say that All American is the most personable, high-energy tour Nick has ever been in.

I had the pleasure of seeing Nick at the Belly Up in Solona Beach on February 27 and at the House of Blues in Boston on March 13th

The crowd at both shows erupted in cheers as soon as the band played those infamous snippets from “Everybody.”  Then out came Nick, wearing his affectionately named Clark Kent glasses, as he began to rock out on his guitar to “Blow Your Mind.”
            
Aside from the Nick and Knight tour, I have mostly seen Nick in larger venues and while I enjoyed every concert I have been to, there is nothing like seeing him up close and personal.  He knows how to work the crowd and offers plenty of crowd participation during such songs as “One More Time” and “Second Wind.”
            
Throughout several portions of the show Nick showed off his Dancing With The Stars skills, eliciting cheers from the crowd that only got louder as the night wore on.
            
As the tour has gone on, it has only gotten better.  Horoscope, one of my favorite songs on All American was added to the set list after Solona Beach, and I am so glad I got to see it live.
            
In addition, Nick also covered “Wonderwall” by Oasis.  It was a fitting choice and seemed to be a thank you to his fans, as he sang, “I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now.”  It was a cool moment to be singing along with the entire crowd.  It was like we were all transported back to the beginning of Nick’s career. 
            
All American has a little bit of everything: classic Backstreet, old school solo Nick, and snippets of hits “Rocket Man” (during “I’m Taking Off”) and “Jessie’s Girl” (during “All American”).    
           
The show itself has a great pace- alternating between newer and older tracks, and slower and faster.  I was highly impressed by the musical arrangements of the acoustic portion of the show, which included many Backstreet Boys hits including “I Want It That Way,” “Show Me The Meaning of Being Lonely,” and “Madeline.”  Carter’s voice has only matured over the years, and hearing him sing these classics in his own interpretation was almost like hearing the Backstreet Boys for the first time.  I personally enjoyed “I Will Wait” as well, as it showcases his falsetto and crooning that his fans have come to know and love.  
           
Nick’s shining moment came on “Falling Down.”  He said at sound check in Boston, that that song is currently his favorite to perform. You can tell when a performer connects to a song, and his performance was by far one of my favorites of the tour.  Carter performs it with such conviction and honesty.   In Boston, he jokingly apologized for getting lost in it, but for those of us watching, it was Carter’s vocal equivalent of his captivating Dancing With the Stars number that he dedicated to his wife Lauren. 
             
"Burning Up" features Nick at his finest.  The song on its own is upbeat, but as the chorus hits, he really gets into his groove, firing up the crowd with his high- energy dance moves.

“Fun” is the best way to describe the last few songs of the set list.  Tijuana was also added after Solona Beach, and it was another great addition to the show.  Nick jumped up and down on the stage and his energy radiated to the crowd.
            
“19 in 99” and “Get Over Me” literally made the crowd wild for more, and by the encore I am pretty sure no one wanted the show to end.
            
When Nick is onstage, he is in his element.  He is the ultimate performer.  Despite being sick in Boston, he never skipped a beat.  All American delivers in every way possible.  Don’t miss out! 





Monday, January 18, 2016

MC75 Offers Edgier Sound


MC75 delivers a harder, edgier sound than fans may be used to hearing from singer songwriter Matt Cook, as he embarks on a new journey with bandmates Alberto Munoz (drums) and Matthew Pucci (bass). Laughing on the Outside, Crying on the Inside is a jazzier, upbeat album that combines new instruments and arrangements.  Gone is acoustic guitar, replaced with savvy bass and drums and inspired piano playing.

The opening track "So Called Love" tells the vicious cycle of being played and coming back for more: “What have I learned…I must like getting burned.”  The use of the distortion pedal on the bass is perfect, as it echoes the hollowness that exists in such a relationship.

The second track "Glutton" bears resemblance to one of Cook’s major influences Ben Folds Five, through its use of the melodica, also used in "Steven’s Last Night In Town" and "Smoke."  "Glutton" continues the story, but this time that means pick yourself up, “stand taller,” and find “someone who makes me smile,” no longer putting up with the hot and cold game.

"Times Square" sets the background for a dichotomy that surely exists in all of us: the feeling of wanting to be alone and not alone at the same time: “People fleeting in every direction/You’re lost in the center of attention.” 

"Patience" is a stand-alone love ballad, showcasing Cook’s rich, velvety vocals.  Here Cook goes back to his roots, layering his own vocal harmonies in the chorus like in his earlier solo work, "Draw."  Musician Pete Andrews bows an acoustic upright bass, adding to the layers of emotion, and again paying homage to Ben Fold Five’s Brick.


The tempo slows down on the final track, "Laughing on the Outside, Crying on the Inside," and ends on a somewhat somber and contemplative note: “Silence fills these empty days…“Am I ever gonna change?”  One could argue that this story ends just as it began, but I’d like to think it just comes full circle instead.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

When Is Enough Enough?

When Is Enough Enough?

The first thing I did once I got home from work today, was log onto my Facebook account and the first post I saw was about another school shooting at Oregon.  My initial reaction was, oh God, not again. My second reaction was I didn't even know about this because I was at work all day, and my third was why was there only one post in my entire newsfeed regarding this?

Have we become so complacent to what Obama called "routine" shootings?   Do we just accept that these acts of violence against innocent lives are okay?  When is enough enough?  I am angry that there are people out there who think that it is okay to shoot innocent people who are sitting in a classroom learning, to further their intellectual growth and careers.  I am angry that we still live in a world where some people believe that someone's religion determines whether an individual is a good person or not.  Tolerance and respect are what make religion what is it.  It should bring us together, not divide us.

I mourn for the innocent lives that were lost today.  I mourn for the students who should have went to school today and learned something to better their lives, instead of have their lives cut short by someone who clearly has hate for human life and religion.

It is not okay to accept that mass shootings will occur.  It is not okay to stand by and do nothing.  It is not okay to be complacent.  We must rally together as a nation, and enact change.  Whether that's fighting for better gun control laws, teaching your neighbor tolerance, or even taking time out of our busy days to stop and reflect, we need to do something.  We are better than this.  We need to be better than this.  #enoughisenough #UCCShooting